Sorry having a moan

[Pamela]

Well I have been back in work for nearly 2 months and surprisingly I have enjoyed it that is until now! I am having a tough time about Jamie at the moment, don???t know if it is because its my birthday coming up or what but I am a bit tearful and it didn???t help when I got an email this morning!

Basically they are asking me to attend a meeting in Annecy and it happens to fall on Jamie???s Angel Day. I mentioned that I don???t feel happy to not go to his garden on this day and I was hoping they would let me bow out of the meeting. But no ??? I can go to his garden but then I have to get a flight and because of the flight times and I wont get to Anncey till quite late which means I will miss the first meeting but I will be expected to meet with people I hardly know have never socialised with before and put a brave face on because I am not allowed to tell them why I am late!

He said ??I would like this to be kept between ourselves though so if anyone asks, the story is you had a personal commitment that you could not change.  OK?

Lastly, going forward, there is an expectation that you will attend future meetings in their entirety.???

I guess it is a reasonable compromise but I just feel so rubbish about it at the moment !!!!!!!!!

Sorry just had to get that off my chest!

[kimbobt84-BensMummy]

I don't know what to say Pamela, if they knew what it was like to walk in our shoes i have no doubt they'd let you have the day off and not 'speak' to you like that. I've always been quite fortunate to not have anything clash on ben's birthday or anniversary, but i dread the day it does. All i can say is that you can only do what you can do and god the day will be even harder but you've shown strength and got through this heartbreaking journey so far so i know you can do it x

[suzanne]

 

[Pamela]

Thank you !!!! I need to stop crying so easily first that wuld be a start LOL - i look a mess today at work!

[kimbobt84-BensMummy]

we're all guilty of that at times Pamela, i'm at the doctors tonight, just for holly's inhaler review, but all she has to say is 'and are you ok?' and i'll roar! It's such a difficult situation for you Pamela, and i always feel for people who's babies have special days december time as the christmas in december countdown starts stupidly early every year! They're all counting down to christmas, your counting down to Jamies day and another xmas without him. Sorry i'm probably upsetting you more than helping you but just my way of saying what your feeling is understandable X

[Belles Mummy]

  Pamela people are so insenitive!! Thinking of you xxx

[Pamela]

Thank you, I hope Hollys review goes ok!

[mum2evan+dyfan]

pamela i'm so sorry.
i find their attitude completely insensitive and i think they're wrong.
i've been very lucky with work and how good they've been to me.  i don't know what i'd do if they'd been difficult.
i guess if you have to go you can make sure you get a window seat on the airoplane and wave to jamie up in the clouds.  i'm sure he'll be sitting on the wing of your plane.

Kathxxx

[marie~elises mummy]

 

[Bretts mummy Emma]

Pamela I hope that the day goes better than what is in your head right now. Jamie will be with you wherever you are on that day anyway. Whether you are at his garden or on a plane xxxxx look after yourself hunni xxxxx

[***clairelouise-finlays mummy ***]

 

[Olliemam+1]

Pamela,

I am so so sorry that they are being so so curel and insensitive xxxxx.  They have no idea the pain and suffering we go through wach and everday, even more when it is a special day. 

Take care

Dawn xxxxx. 

[angelheart]

I'll be honest i've never had a problem with Joshua's angel day or birthday,i've always taken it off,the husband goe's one step further he take's the day before off too.I'd know he'd lose his head if they made him work that day,and i'd have a breakdown,i'd tell them it's just not on it's a day when life changed forever and i need the time full stop.