thank you all so much for the messages and birthday wishes for the twins ,
I think ethan has been playing tricks on me today , I got awaken this morning after very little sleep by my smoke alarm going off,
very scary at the time but luckily no smoke or fire thank god , but then the stupid thing went off every 7 mins ( we actually timed it ) until I shouted '' pack it in will you , you little bugger ''
then later when his daddy and I trudged through the snow to walk to the cematry with ethan's flowers, you could hardly see his grave , he has a nice head stone , not massive but not tiny and it was so covered in snow it looked like a snowman , none of the stones nearby were anywhere near as cover as his , which at first I found upsetting but then as i cleared of the snow, a huge blob of snow went straight down the back of trousers ( freeezing cold ) the cematry was empty except me and chrissy and he was in front of me ?
I think this morning was him making sure his twin sister was up to open her presents , maybe with them being twins my nan told him he couldn't open his until erin was up to open hers ? it was ethan telling me off for clearing away his snow man , after all it was the only snowman in the cematry :-)
I felt bad for not taking erin with us to the cematry today but with her broken collorbone already , her sight problems the glare of the sun off the snow really disorientates her
I felt terrible as i put her to bed tonight , she laid down and sang happy birthday to herself for the 200 time today , I asked her who elses birthday it was and she actually finally said it, she said a clear ''e han'' instead of what she usually calls him ''budda ''
so I choked back my tears and said happy birthday erin , happy birthday ethan , and she copied and said "happeee burstday E han "
only thing that could have made it more magic would be to hear him say ''happee burstday erin back'' xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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